He Fought For Me

"I just wish someone would fight for me!" It almost sounds silly to me now, but these words actually came from my own mouth. Have you ever felt like someone gave up on you too soon? A parent? A spouse? A friend?

Well, I can say that I have felt this way. Rejected. Replaced. Used. And it hit me recently that maybe all I really need is for someone to fight for me. Treasure me. Protect me. Prove their love by going the distance, even when I'm unlovable.

As I wallowed in self-pity the other night, I realized that I was acting in a way that wasn't very becoming. I knew I was being selfish. Stubborn. Unlovable. Childish, even. Sometimes it's easy to recognize when I'm acting this way, but that doesn't mean it's easy to change my attitude. I've even given myself pep talks before. They go something like this:

Sensible Me: "Trisha, come on. You know you're acting silly. Cheer up. You have a lot of things for which you can be thankful."

Pitiful Me: "But life's not fair. I never thought I'd have to walk this path. I'm tired of being strong. I just want to feel sorry for myself right now."

Sensible Me: "Life isn't fair. Isn't that what you tell the kids all the time? That doesn't mean you should sit around and mope. Get up and do something. Make a change. You don't have to be strong. God will carry you."

So what do I do? Yep. I usually mope some more. It's just easier that way.

But on this particular night, I turned on some music, because music speaks to my soul. I just need to do some soul searching when I get in these moods. I pulled up a song on Youtube that is one of my favorites from long ago.
   

Love Song by Third Day
I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves.
How many times has he broken that promise?
It has never been done.
I've never climbed the highest mountain,
But I walked the hill of Calvary.

Just to be with you, I will do anything
There's no price I would not pay, no.
Just to be with you, I would give everything
I would give my life away.

I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves.
All of those dreams are an empty emotion.
It can never be done.
I've never swam the deepest ocean,
But I walked upon the raging sea.

Just to be with you, I will do anything
There's no price I would not pay, no.
Just to be with you, I would give everything
I would give my life away.

I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love.
How I died upon the cross for your sins.
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I give you,
But I promise, I would do it all again.

Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay, no.
Just to be with you, I gave everything.
Yes, I gave my life away.
Just to be with you.


That's when it hit me! Someone did fight for me! When I was unlovable, selfish, stubborn and childish, not only did Jesus fight for me, He gave His life for me. In light of that, should it really matter if I ever find someone on earth willing to fight for me? Honestly, even if I felt like someone was willing to fight for me, they would still be human. They would still make mistakes. They would still hurt me. That's why I have to learn to get my validation from my Savior...not from anyone or anything on this earth. Otherwise, I'm simply setting myself up for a lifetime of disappointments and mopey days.

"Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God." Colossians 3:1-3

I'm glad I wrote this. The next time I have a pity party, I'll be sure to log on and read this again. I need reminders on a regular basis. :-)